Tuesday, 24 June 2014

This is probably a bad day to start a blog.

Today, a Tuesday of a week which I'm sure has been shit on by some minor god of incompetence. Tuesdays in general are awful, terrible days so combined with this obviously cursed week, I'm having a lot of fun.

But! In the spirit of rediscovering my optimism (which used to be my main defining feature and is now lost under a pile of negativity somewhere in my brain), I'm starting a blog. A Real Blog. I've always wanted a Real Blog. I've even started a few (dozen). But, in true Pisces fashion, the disconnect between my imagination and the reality of actually working on something always discouraged me. There's a full graveyard of abandoned social media bearing my name.

So we're trying again and this time I've got a goal: rediscover how to be hopeful. I've got the framework all in place. I'm starting a new job in a few days, I'm selling jewellery online, I've even got everything set up to be a freelance writer which might actually mean--gasps from the audience--writing again. It would sure be nice to be writing again. I'm taking actual steps towards practicing my arts in public, letting people see the things I create, and that's terrifying and exhilarating. I guess most good things are terrifying and exhilarating. I've never been a big risk taker.

So even though my brain is telling me that it's all useless and none of this is going to go anywhere, I'm gonna do it anyway. I'm doing it somewhat out of spite and somewhat out of sheer determination, but mostly I'm doing it out of desperation. These are the tools I've got at hand. I'm going to use them to build something better.

Today, a blog. Tomorrow, world domination (or, you know, maybe just a nice sense of accomplishment). Onwards.